Sometime's Life Rob's You....

Tonight has just been one of them night's that we all have. There are many different thought's going through my head.

I went and hung out with Rian again (the boy 2 floors down in my dorm). I'm so confused with this guy; he just sends so many mixed up signals to me. Sometimes he can be a little flirty, sometimes I feel like he's talking to me about school like my parents, and other times he's awkward and flirty together. He wont talk to me forever, and then message me out of nowhere wanting to hang out. He's cute and funny and can be flirty.... but I don't know. I was thinking about just saying "Fuck it" and kissing him, but that's hard when I cant even read his opinion on me. Well I was finally gunna just take the dive and do it.....then.....he say's "I found a Bi girl for you.".... -,-" "How did you know I was Bi again?" was all I could ask. He must of say it on my profile on the site we met on before i took it down. But yah, so at that moment I was back to being confused but now worse and I knew there was no way I was going to make the move after that.
 Im so stuck.

I was cleaning my room tonight when I came across a white tank top that looked to small to be mine.... then realized it was my ex's, Drake. It still smelt like him :) :....( I wanted to bust into tears but I was....(-,-" The song he use to sing to me JUST came on my Ipod now too....fuck my life)..... in the room with my roommate.
Some times I question my decision to leave him. I loved him with all of my heart. Some times I just feel like life has robbed me of all I worked for and thought I had.......

When do I get to rob it back? :,(

~C